all about hyun yoo

STUPID

2009-09-11T15:16:00.001+08:00

there might be no more 2PM or Big Bang

all misfortune happened.

but why that way.

its so not fair.

i am missing them badly!!!!

my heart bleeds for JaeBeom(2PM) and DaeSung(BigBang).

T.T

HOTTTT!!!

2009-07-01T22:52:00.001+08:00

credit to time2sub2 for the video ^^

are they hot or what??!! hahahaha!!!

especially JAEBEOM at the last part singing playing the piano!! sexxyyyyy!!! ^^

POSING

2009-06-21T21:22:00.002+08:00

hey hey i went out again to the flea market near my house!! i think i can't go places that sell cheap n nice stuffs!! esp clothes!!!! i must buy!! even tho no $$!! hahaha had to lend my sis $$ again....

this is actually my sis dress, just posing for fun ^^
cost $10

this is mine!!!! hehehe cool or what wear with scarf ^^
cost: $12

tmr school starts, what a bummer!!!!! >.<

LONELY

2009-06-19T21:51:00.003+08:00

everyone is so busy with their own work.
nobody has time.
its so irritating!!
i am so alone!!
what a bummer!!

i hate projects!!
hate school!!
what a bummer!!

getting addicted to facebook!
good thing or bad??
what a bummer!!

2PM hwaiting!!! u are the love of my other half life (besides my abang)

hongki is soooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SO LOVE FT ISLAND!!

the end of the weekend . . . .

2009-05-03T19:28:00.004+08:00

what a boring sunday i had today. did nothing much. stayed at hm and rot. LOL!

did PCA tutorial. the last qn i soooo dont understand!! gave up trying to figure it out. =S

wanted to do CMA1 tutorial qns too; but didnt buy the book. ask lingle to help scan for me the qns. but too bad i cant see it. blur. so i guess i will be copying it tmr. *shakes head*

oh ya while i was taking a shower, my leg suddenly so itchy man!!! cannot tahan. then after showering and stuffs, i found this "bump thingy" at my leg. i wonder what happen. suddenly so itchy. scary you know. =x

forgot to post it up yest, bought this at JB too. cute right?? ^^

this is the stupid "bump" at my leg >.<

new goodies!!!

2009-05-02T21:30:00.003+08:00

went to JB today. and guess what i shopped!!! LOL!! bought a few stuffs.

wanted some high cut shoes like 2pm, ft island and SNSD wears. but bcos of my small size. they look to big on me. so at last i choose smth similar lah. i'm happy!! it only cost RM90!! hehehe cheap rite?? branded somemore u know ^^

bought pretzels and donuts too. watch a malay movie, jangan tegur. not that scary, but jus jumpy. =)

Hoodie bought at RM25

zoom in of the hoodie pattern

at last a nice waterbottle cost me RM15.90

cost me RM19.90

OF COS MY FAV. HIGH CUT SHOE AT RM90

this is when i'm wearing it ^^

videos

2009-05-01T21:34:00.004+08:00

Nickhun is just soo cute here!!! ^^ and JiKwon is damn hilarious!! 2PM 2AM HWAITING!!

i so want to learn the dance!! she is so great in dancing. my fav is the last part, i so want that hamtaro pajamas!! hehehe so cute!! =)

i so want the phone!!!! esp hyun joong phone!! the strips!! so niceeee!!

isn't this so fun!!! KIM HYUN JOONG HWAITING!!! =)

what a bummer . . . . . .

2009-04-30T22:17:00.003+08:00

I LOVESSSS JUNSU VOICE!!! EVEN THO HE GOT ACCENT!! AND MY JAY!!! *DIES* LOL!!! OH YA LINDA, I DON'T CARE YOU SAY SINGS LIKE ANUAR ZAIN; I STILL LOVE HIM TO BITS!!! =D [Jay wearing red sweater, Junsu wearing black cap ^^]

AWWWWW... i dont think would be meeting up my close poly mates that often, they have their own classes and schedule. if projects are up; i bet we would be very busy!!! at least i got to see hui yin and linda today =)

Linda bought for hui yin and me pretzels that day. cinnamon sugar!!! so delicious!!! hehehe thx ya linda!!!

didnt get to see adam today. what a bummer. have to wait till tuesday. =(

not sure if i would be meeting abang tmr. haishhh......

i need $$$$$$$$$$

=(=(=(=(=(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2009-04-26T22:41:00.003+08:00

today me and my mum and sis went to adam hse. today is his birthday. he is 2 years old!! hehehe.. waaahh his birthday cake "chu chu train". his favourite lah. from coffee beans somemore. lucky boy!

but den i dont think the cake was that nice lahh. so sweet. hehehe adam look so cute today with his clothes. look like want to go play golf! hahaha thats what my mum said lah. =)

[this is what he wore today]

after that we went to giant. bought my laptop casing [at last]. cheeap!! $19.90. it was on offer, real price was $39.90. ^^

bought other stuffs too... used my $$$$. all together spent $60++. haishhhhh

i need to buy books somemore.

hope they pay be back soon...

i miss my abang. hope can see him tmr. let tmr come fast.

I DEDICATE THIS POST TO MY LOVELY SMALL BROTHER, ADAM!

I WISH YOU A VERY HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY!!

HOPE YOU LOVE THE PRESENT WE BOUGHT FOR YOU!

DON'T EVER FORGET KAKAK OK?? ^^

gooseebuummpsss

2009-04-24T20:47:00.003+08:00

sch has start this week. kinda shag. i dont know why i couldnt wake up for morning class at 9. damnnn.. got to see my poly mates!! hehe so happy. and of cos i was extra crazy with them. have been laughing everytime i meet them. missesd you guys man!!!

like i said before we r not in the same class. but i guess we do make an effort to meet after sch. =) i hope we do keep it up ok??

just love their crazzzziiinnessss!!! hui yin is a happy pill for me, everytime make me smile, linda is a darling friend, everytime she is there to share my carziness and aisha is a supportive friend where she helps me to tease the others =p

OMG!!!! 2PM COMEBACK STAGE PERFORMANCE IS JUST AWESOME!!!! HAD GOOSEBUMPS WATCHING THE VID!! JUNHO IS JUST SO LIKE RAIN, JUNSU VIOCE IS LIKE AN ANGEL, PARK JAEBEOM!!!!!!! *DIES*

NOT FORGETING THE OTHER MEMBERS, CHANSUNG, NICKHUN, TAECYEON, WOOYOUNG WITH THEIR GREAT HAIRSTYLE!!!!

I JUST DONT GET THE FASHION SENSE. WHAT KIND OF CLOTHES IS THAT?? BUT ANYWAY THEY STILL LOOK HOT; SO WHO CARES???!!!!

oh ya at the end when the fans cheered out their names was just AMAZING!!!! good timing!!! hehehehehe =D

Trick Or Treat!!

2009-04-19T23:25:00.005+08:00

these few days have been hot!!! wow the sun is damn blazing hot lah. at home very stuffy!! off the fan only, it gets uncomfortable. argghhh!!

went out to belanja my parents as me and my sister have started working, so we tot why not. wanted to treat them to seoul garden, but weekends was expensive for dinner. it cost $21.99++. so my dad say waste of money. so at last we went to bedok corner to eat!!

firstly we ate 2 mee kuah upeh $10 and then bbq stingray with sambal $16, after that malay rojak $4 and at last clam pasta and chicken ham pizza $11. I DO NOT RECOMMEND YOU TO EAT THE PASTA!! ITS DAMN YUCKY!!!!! I HATED IT. REGRETED BUYING IT. WASTED MY $6 ON IT.

lucky i had my bandung drink!!!! wahhh damn nice. had 2 tall cups of it. =) after finish eating, we bought donuts!!! yum yum!!! hehe but too full to eat lah. just eat it tmr. ^^

after reaching tampines, there is a flea market near my house. every month they have it there. so i asked my sis and mom along. wahhhh i saw alot of things, but by then i was left with $6 only. haha i wanted to but this formal looking dress. very nice!! soooo guess what?? i borrowed some money from my sis!! hehe it cost $20. to me is cheap. we bought a bag for my sis that cost $5 and a set of toy cars for adam that cost $4. hehehehe..

i am officially holding less money from today onwards. need to pay back my sis the 20. aiiyyoooo. i need my next pay fast. dont like seeing my bank balance little. scares me to death. hahaha. i am such a bis spender. =/

The dress that i bought [of cos thats me modeling ^^]:

[front view]

[back view]

OH MY GOD!!

2009-04-18T22:37:00.006+08:00

enjoy these pictures of 2PM. HOTT HOTT!!!

if you are free watch this two videos, very funny; especially when they speak with short phrases of english. LOL
Part 1

Part 2

AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN

2009-04-16T22:02:00.003+08:00

yuuhuuuuu~~~~~~~~

went out with my abang today!!! we went out for pastamania!!! yeah yeah!!! nice nice. i recommend u the apple crumble pizza. DELICIOUS!! Abang ate turkey bacon aglio and i ate chicken cheese salsiccia. i love it man!!! would be coming again to try the other pastas!!

oh ya the person who we ordered from looks like FT Island Lee Hong Ki!!! OMG!!!!! his smile look the same!!!! jus that this guy is abit chubbier on the cheecks!!! but OMG!!! so cute!!! i kept looking at him and smiling!! told my abang he look like Hong Ki, he say ok lah abit but he looks clumsy, then i said thats why he look cute!! LOLS!!!!

when to walk ard tampines 1 oso. i dont think the new shopping mall is that exciting. hehehe. went to cold storage to buy sushi. i lah gatal, so full still wanna eat sushi then i couldn't finish it. hahahaha maybe i am just happy that i got to go out with abang.

oh ya, i am not in the same class with my close buddies. =( at least lingle is in the same class. ^^
at least got friend to talk to. haishhh but i still feel quite sad. I MISS THEM SO MUCH!!!!

OMFG!!! 2PM MV again & again has come out!! *wake up & dies again* too hottttt to handle!! dance moves, vocals, image!!! OMG!!!!!!!! MY HEART IS PUMPING TOO FAST LAHH!!! GOT TO TELL SOMEONE!!! BUT LINDA IS NOT ONLINE!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHA YOU GUYS BETTER CHECK IT OUT OK??????

2PM - Again & Again MV

girls day out

2009-04-15T21:53:00.005+08:00

wohuuuu~~!! at last i got to meet up with my best bud ever, KUSS!!! hehehehe.. it has been a long time we meet up. we planned to wear our ite polo t-shirt. we looked like ite student. and of cos i do look like a ite student bcos of my size, and as usual kuss said not ite sutdent primary sch student. LOL

we went to eat at food culture, hot n sour. so sorry kuss i didnt finish my food =S

after that went to tampines 1, kuss said she had a headache, too many people. we went around looking for her a hoodie/jacket. at last we found one at sportslink outside century square there. look damn nice lahh.. i so jealous you know.

of cos we talk n talk n crap. she and her kurang ajar enh uuu, while saying that poking me. aiyyoooo

missed spending time with her. it was a short time but had great fun!! =) lets meet up again when u are free ok?

sch starting soon, not sure if i am ready. don't feel like going back to sch. not ready at all. but for sure i want to go back to sch to meet my frens!!!!! =D

today was crap at work. keep losing. *shakes head* i got one advice to give, nvr gamble. the feeling sux when u keep losing. =p

arghhhh no fair i want hongki to say that to me n hug me too!!!

lol so cute hongki's "so hot dance" *smiles*

am i just a toy?

2009-04-14T23:56:00.003+08:00

i can't sleep. something is bothering me. people say that your destiny has been written out for you.

so does that mean what is happening to me is meant to be? so am i a toy? why did i do it even tho i know it is wrong? so it was meant to be??

i feel hurt now. thats all i can feel. you jus don't get what i mean. i am not bringing up the past. you don't get what i am asking. do you know that girls think too much? they always think too deep. can't you know that?

am i a toy to you? do you know the way you answered hurt me badly. you were still calm. do you know how piercing the pain was? you could still say that you didn't meant it that way? then what were you trying to say? OH GOD!!! i can't stand the pain.

i need to tell someone. but who?

maybe i am thinking too much. lets forget about it.

it will be kept deep down my heart and it is only a sceret that i only know.

sorry . . . . . . . . . .

ps: but i can't forget the pain.

BREAKING

2009-04-14T20:05:00.005+08:00

went to work today and it was not a good day to gamble. keep losing. and the stupid online game keep lagging, can't even bet. when i bet i lost, wen i can't bet it was a win. they cheat lahhh. aigooo...

my back hurts so much. feels like it is breaking. the reason must be carrying the laptop of mine.

i am so bored today. when i work i feel i have no life. i wake up everyday at 7.30, bathe by 8, dress up then eat breakfast go to work. work starts at 10 ends at 4. by then so tired, no time to go out oso. since i can't go back hm late.

so i don't see abang that often. and when we do meet its just for a while. haishhhh.....

what a life....

school is starting next week. hope i am still in the same class woth my buddies!! i miss them. T.T

i miss kuss too!!! its been a long time i didn't meet up with her. haiishhhhh...

look how cool my HOTTT JayBeom dances *dies*

Super Junior - Sorry Sorry MV

BIG BANG SCREENING

2009-04-13T20:41:00.005+08:00

OMG!!!! Yesterday i went for Big Bang Global Warning Concert & Taeyang HOT Solo Concert screening!! I HAD A BLAST!!!!!! I JUST SCREAMED AND SCREAMED!! Everybody just look damn fine and hot!! I even received a poster. Its was part of the door gift. I actually got Taeyang poster, but I got it exchanged with T.O.P POSTER!!!! And guess what there were 3 guys there!!! LOL!! Cool having fanboys. hahahaha. They had contests there, and win a LOLLIPOP poster. But i didnt got chosen so yeaa i couldnt win it. OH MAN!!! BUT ITS OK!!! I STILL HAD A GREAT TIME!! BIG BANG SARANGHAE!!! =) the bigbangsingapore even made us do video messages to them. its was so COOL!!! Hope the boys get it *smiling for ear to ear* aisha i hope you had a great time too!!! aisha got G-Dragon poster and it was a CUTE picture of him!!! *dies*

Actually planned to meet up poly buddies after the screening, but at last everybody couldnt make it. i was sooo sad you know... you guys so bad. i miss u guys badly lorrrr.. MISS ALL THE CRAPPINESSSSS!!! WHEN ARE WE GONNA MEET?? SCH IS STARTING SOON!!!!

oh ya I ALSO CANT WAIT FOR 2PM ALBUM!!!! ANOTHER TEASER WAS OUT. AND IT MADE ME MORE ANXIOUS!!! EVERYBODY LOOK SO HOT!!!!!!!! ARGGGHHHH... THE AGONY OF WAITING!!!

it seems that i have alot of capital letters for this post. LOL!!!! i'm jus so hyper for everything!!! i'm funny rite?? hahaha feel like dancing man..

LOLLI LOLLI LOLLI-POP!!!! HEHE ADDICTED TO THAT SONG!!!

this was the poster that i got (Don't T.O.P looked so CUTE!!!)

2PM HOTTTT Teaser

FT Island[A Korean Band] - Bad Woman(Hong Ki [the main vocal] voice sounds like he is crying T.T)

I'M BACK!!

2009-04-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

WOW!! It has been such a long time i blogged. I am such a lazy person. So if there is anybody who still visited my blog, I'm truly sorry. HEHEHE

Lets update what i can remember.

My results was OK. Got A for Financial Accounting, B for Organisational Behaviour, C+ for Macroeconomics, Managing Business Systems and Business Statistics. For my CDS, its was a distinction. Overall GPA is 2.98. 0.08 higher than before!! LOL

For the holidays i got a job. What i do is just play an online casino game. I just need to click and click; bet on the same thing. Such an easy job, pay me $5 per hour. WHAT AN EASY LIFE I HAVE RIGHT?? HAHAHA! I worked 10am to 4pm.

I am missing my poly buddies! I miss their crappiness!! TODAY IS AISHA BIRTHDAY! So I would like to wish her a very HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!! hehehe Hope to see you guys on Saturday yah!!!! =)

Oh ya I am falling in love with 2PM, FT ISLAND, SHINEE, KIM JAE WOOK, JANG GEUN SEOK!!! I have been watching a few korean movies like do re me fa soh la ti do and baby n i. Damn cute stories lah!!! hehehe and also other korean singers. ^^

2pm is coming up with a new album this month i can't wait!!! And Big Bang!! OMG!! Lollipop!! SO BRIGHT!! hehehe

Gojidmal

2009-01-18T19:58:00.003+08:00

I'm so sorry but I love you
It was all a lie, I didn't know
I've only come to realize now that I need you
I'm so sorry but I love you
Sharp and hurtful words,
Said in the heat of the moment without realizing it myself,
I've sent you away
I'm so sorry but I love you
It was all lies
I'm so sorry but I love you
I'm so sorry but I love you

headache

2008-11-25T20:19:00.003+08:00

nothing much happen today. lesson as boring as ever. i would always feel like sleeping during biz stats lecture. haha but after that i would wake up bcos of all the examples that was needed to do. meet with abang during my break. he looks relax. but i know deep down he is worried. he told me he didnt study for his test. aigoooo how to pass . . . .

adam is sick. pity him. he look so sad. wish i could take the pain from him. he look so small and get sick easily. adam!! pass me your fever! dont like to see u sick, give kakak your sickness. i want to see u running around. get well soon ya!

ok u guys shld watch this videos!!! damn nice lahhh

first:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHSfzhp7nos
junsu oppa has the best voice ever!!! =)

second: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqH_XVChyKY
these girls are pro man!! i wish i could pop like them!

third: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FyHi5PXI6bk
too adorable lah, baby wonder girls hehehehe

fourth: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJW1gzB7rds
this girl is damn funny lah. unique in her own way of singing

enjoy watching the video. do watch it!! ^^

drained out

2008-11-24T20:37:00.004+08:00

it is just monday and i'm already very very tired. it feels like the end of the week rather than the beginning. i am getting moodier each day. no one notice it except abang. he will worry and wonder whats wrong and my standard answer to him is nothing.

it is not that i dont want to share. but i just feel numb inside me. my heart seems to be worn out. i mean its physically tired. sch is making me hate life. too much work to do in a short time period. like i say b4, if i feel stress i will not do anythg. i'll run away from it.

i wonder how ppl could cope with poly life. they must be damn smart. like some of my classmates. i wonder how they manage their time. i cant seem to do well in managing it lah. damn frustrating. i know is i can manage it well i wont feel so stress. but i'm not like that.

i keep wanting to run away and jus have fun. i wish i was a rich girl who has the alot alot of money and dont have to worry bout studies. lol!! keep dreaming lah...

today nothing much happen. did our biz stat presentation today and hui yin had to present. she did a great job in presenting!! u go girl!! after that did our OB project that has to be pass up tmr. didnt take alot of time. wanted to continue on but i guess we were too tired. i understand u guys. =)

abang came to the free access lab to see me. so sweet of him. he played his game while i was doing my project. after i was done with the project he still continue playing. what a bummer. then i suggested we play game together. i had fun but it didnt lasted. he had to go by 3. and i was sad. didnt feel the time we spent together was enuff. it was never enuff. that is when abang was worried again. he think i dont love him no more. OF COS NOT!!!!

aigoooo abang, i'm no longer the strong nadirah u knew in secondary days, i've changed alot. i hope your love to me nvr fades. i still love you maybe even more than b4. =) hope to see you tmr

i think i'm getting skinny. even Has said that. you see i soo stress lah.. even pimples are coming out!!! ARRRGGHHHH!!!!!

maybe i shld learn this dance b4 mirotic. if i ever find the time . . . . .

sick and tired

2008-11-23T19:15:00.008+08:00

i dont know whats happening. life is becoming harder n harder. i dont know how to live it anymore. i feel like i'm being drag everyday by this invisible rope. the only thing that keep me going on is my abang n my beloved friends.

sch is too difficult. cant stand the stress. n when i'm stress i'll tend to just not do annythg. i have not done any tutorials yet. wanted to do biz stats but i dont understand. it makes me hate it even more. i feel poly is not for me. its too stressful. my parents dont see it. haishhh. they think i'm doing fine.

i keep dreaming to go to korea. nvr know if it wld happen. i need money. thats the other prob. living in sg is sucha drag. u need money to move ard. everythg got to do with money. cant life be sooo simple??

went out today with abang. when to the NTO office. one was cloased so went to the sg visitor centre. after that we went to cathay cineplax. watched beverly hills chihuahua. haha damn funny lah. had fun with him today. but he need to go early. was so sad. tot i had time to talk n have fun. but...

time passes by too fast. i don't like it. what to do...

i wish i wish with all my my heart that life could go by like the wind breeze . . . . . . . .

would love to dance like her!! so u guys wait for my video of this dance ahhh hehehe

Video

2008-11-22T19:08:00.008+08:00

haha i have nothing to do today jus tot of uploading this. yes i dance for fun n i dun have great moves. i wish i do have one. i keep repeating dance step. this is for ur entertainment but dun laugh too much ahh i can here u.. =)

today went to sch n Has didnt come. Aisha was late. so i played this dressup rush n hui yin like it too!! haha funny sia..

sad that i cant go to the big bang meeting. damn man..

bored lahhh no mood to do anythg n i'm missing my baby!!! haha guess who?? >.<

hello

2008-11-20T23:39:00.011+08:00

okay ppl, i get it. i dont update n dont blog that much. it has been months that i dont update properly. as the last post my friends were just too bored and what to help me blog. but it was so crappy. hey guys no one even bothered to reply u ppl lah. lol

okay i've been tagged by two ppl to do this. so being such a nice girl, i'll do it. *smiles innocently*

1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!

10 weird things/habits/little known facts about ME!!!

1. I spread my leg so wide at home while sitting down which looks so horrible.
2. When i dig my nose at home, i dig like i'm lovin it (get my drift? lol)
3. When i hate that person, i'll talk bad about them n i dont even give them chances. JUST HATE them
4. I just love cute guys(Malay or Chinese i dont mind). My defination of cute is when a guy can carry having a long hair and dorky specs =)
5. I just love guys who are tall n they wear fitting pants/jeans!!! like jaejoong n changmin oppa =)
6. I day dream sometimes that i get to meet Choi Seung Hyun and Youngwoong Jaejoong and got kisses n hugs from them =)
7. I badly miss my best friend that is faizzah and kuss!!!
8. I tend to make ppl mad easily especailly my boyfriend.
9. I so love babies, and cant wait to have one >.<
10. i have this dirt little secret and i cant tell anyone; ssshhhhhh ;)

i dont have alot of frens so wont be tagging anyone =)

i fought alot with abang. even asked for a break up. crazy me. haha i just want to run away from problems. hate facing them n hate making ppl worry. ppl dont understand the way i think. especially abang. but of cos i still love him so so much. i'll be lost w/o him. *shakes head* is that what happen when u love someone so dearly??

Here are some photos taken during this month:

-CCN Day

These were the 1st few photos taken huiyin ah u dunno how to tak picture issit?? cut ur own face >.<

This is the airbursh tatto on my left arm

-Mushroom

My two dearly friends: Has and Aisha

See how ugly i smile

Has cannot see ur face lah!!

tireddd

-Classroom

-Lecture

-Adam House

Random

2008-11-10T14:54:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!! Haslindah here!

Wlao Chip2 DAMN KAYPOH WANNA SEE SEE. Faster lah come up with qould you rather questions! Kay people answer this question and post your answers at the tagboard kay?
If not I curse your neh neh one size A cup and the other side Z cup. Serious kedoodles.

Would you rather eat a slice of shitcake with ringworms or drink a cup full of cum with bits of curly hairs inside with dandruff and hairlice? (kutu)
answer ah.. dont shy shy.. cannot take out anything from the cake or cum.

YOYO Huiyin in the house! I am going to dedicate a paragraph to myself! MWAHAHAHA we are currently with chipchip the chipskate LOL kidding and we are playing the game "Would you Rather!!!" Wanna play i know you wanna play HAHAHA it is so funny!!!! Damn fun man! I am so random and it is so funny WAHAHAHA i am actually helping chip to blog here because she is so lazy, maybe this will make her wanna update!

u guys just dont mind my frens. they are just being random, since i dont update my blog this is jus for fun!! hahaha!! =) KAY BYEBYEBEYBYEBYE

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

cough cough

2008-10-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

oh man i keep coughing n coughing. having it real bad. nothing much is going on. sch is starting nxt week cant wait. but when sch is open i cant wait for it to close. haha

hari raya was ok. we went out the first day of raya even though my dad said we wldnt. but it was abit tense. but it was ok. now i'm sick with flu n cough. go ppl hse eat this drink that, no wonder i sick. haha. but i guess that usually happen. didnt get much for raya money. oni abt 110 oni. little huh? how i wish i have a lot of money!! i want to buy so money clothes. i jus dunno y that i need to buy clothes wen i have enuff. girls are jus weird. we love bags, shoes, clothing, accessories. well basically everythg!!

adam is sick. he didnt come today. heard he got lung infection. my poor adik. no wonder wen he coughs it sounds so bad. hope he is fine and wld be coming tmr. i miss him soo soo much!!

besides adam i'm missing my abang. didnt had a gd start wen we went out todat. bummer. y must i be such a hard person. y cant i jus give n take. dunno lah. but i do still love u very very much. so sorry for today but also thank u!! u are still the best!! chu wa yo. keke

i'm jus typing random stuffs.

DBSK had at last came out with their 4th album. what a long wait 1 year 7 months. and it is worth waiting!! i'm in love with their song spell(mirotic). what cool moves they have. such great great song. have not yet listen to other songs tho. but i bet i is damn great lah. someone pls buy me the album!!! i want their pictures. they have build up their body and fuuhhhh with the muscles. i think i'm falling in love with jaejoong all over again. shhhh dont tell my abang. he'll get mad. hehehe

Big bang is quiet for now. but i still watch their videos. MV and stuffs. watching family outing where daesung is in it. cool show.

Wondergirls again came out with another single, Nobody as u are hearing now. i love it!!!

i guess i will nvr get tired of this 3 grps. korean music rox!!!
all thx to my dongsaeng who introduce it to me. dongsaeng i miss u oso!! wen can i see u??
msg me wen u r free. long time no talk n see. i wonder how r u...

till nxt time!!

wen the sunshine comes
show ur smile
forget all ur troubles
think positively and live life to the fullest!!!

same old me

2008-09-30T06:10:00.003+08:00

again i have nothing much to say, thats why i dont blog that much. its always like this, i have opened so many blogs before and i close it after some time as i do not do anything. i hope it doesnt happen again.

after sch is closed, i am more bored as the month of ramadhan is here. fasting month. been doing ok but so bored. today is the last day and tmr is the syawal month where we celebrate hari raya. its a day where everybody is happy. however like every other hari raya, mine is not happy. i wonder how many years has it been like this. yet again my parents fought, me n sis wont be celebrating it. we r not going out to visit relatives as what had been said by my father. i wonder why small things are made big by him. i think he is sick some where. really i really do feel that way, i didnt do anything wrong n he say i did, giving him a sour face. i know u might say that he is stress at work n stuffs but u have to know how to handle it. he just cant.

now it makes me wonder if marriage is a happy thing. i do see happy days, but when "sad" days come it is really depressing and tiring. the heart cant take the hurt. hurt so much. i know i'm just thinking to much. but its just me. life is like that. i'm scared to get married. dont ask me why. but it is a scary thing.

my mum asked adam mum how long are we babysitting him, and guess what she said. she hope that my mum can take care of adam for a few more years. yeah years man!!! haha so happy to hear. it makes me happy as adam is someone who just know hows to play but sometimes very annoying but he makes me smile. i really hope my mum would still be taking care of adam. yet again my father is making a big fuss abt it. he said that taking care of adam is ok but my mum is not helping. financially. he said that he cant be paying everything by himself. what a bummer. such a loser. he always come back hm after he finish his work and that is at ard 1 plus just to see adam. and he says that. sickening lah. what the hell.

so the moral of my story is, life is not fair. yeah who says its fair. tmr hari raya wld be a gloomy day for me. so whatever, anyway selamat hari raya to my muslim friends, hope u have a nice day and i ask for forgiveness for all my wrong doings.

cau!!!

what am i to do

2008-09-12T11:09:00.002+08:00

have not been updating that much. the blog is jus collecting dust. haha well i cant be bothered actually. so tired n dont know what to type abt actually. anyway i got a laptop at last. acer extensa 4620Z. may not be the lastest model but i'm lovin' it. now i can do any project work without hassle. not have to depend on anyone.

my exam results was a let down. didnt know it would turn out that badly. haishhh. 1 A, 2 B and 2 C; and a gpa of 2.9. bummer. i'm targeting to get 3 n above. i guess now it would be difficult. easy for ppl to say try harder next time. they just dont get it. i cried. what to do, i just cried lah. haishhh. i'm so sad lah. y ppl can do better i cant. its frustrating u know. =(

went out with faizzah and her cousins(yana and wani) yesterday. miss going out with girlfriends. they talk crap n just make u laugh. haishh. but adilah cldnt make it. long time nvr see her. i miss all my friend. anyway we went n break fast at Qiji. ate nasi lemak, it was ok but the popiah was nice. i'll buy it again one day. hehe but i've been craving to eat otah-otah but the one at Qiji was not that nice. but i ate it anyway. after that we took pictures. haha faizzah loves to take pictures, i wonder y. i dont like it that much bcos i dont look nice in photos.hahaha. but for the fun of it i took with them. after eating went to mondo to serach for hari raya shoes for wani. after she bought one i met my abg n they went to geylang. wanted to follow them but... its ok. i guess next time.

adam is going to leave soon. what i mean is the 4 months of taking care of him is up. so fast. i've grown attached to him. dunno what i'll do without him. hmm. miss him so so much. dat day we took him to geylang. he was running all ard. turning bumping into ppl. haha what joy to see him like that. so cute!!!!!!

adam i'm gonna miss u so so so much!!!!!!

my wishlist

2008-08-18T08:20:00.010+08:00

not much had happen last week. at last all project and presentation over. but exams are coming on the 22,26 n 27. not sure i'm ready not. i'll just do my best. on last sat, got CSA paper. hahaha i dont even know how to do section b lah. just do anyhow. hope i still can pass. i dunno why i am so relax, maybe not in exam mood yet. well i have nothing much to say, n so i'll be putting up my birthday wishlist like what faizzah ask me to, so here goes(i have alot i want so yeah!hope i get it ^^):

1st: Anycall Haptic Phone

2nd: Sony Vaio Laptop

3rd: Korean Air Ticket to Seoul

4th: Apparels!!! =)

Long tops or dresses

Hoodies

Printed T-Shirts

5th: Elastic Belts

6th: Shoulder/Tote Bags

7th: Shoes!!

i'm jus crazy about girl stuffs. hehehe. i dont expect to get all this but i just hope my frens could come to my bbq pit on the 30th of aug. psst faizzah i hope this wishlist help u to buy smth for my birthday. hehehe ^^

when the storm is over

comes out the rainbow

thats is when all the troubles are over

show that happy smile of yours

and dont think of the pain

past tense

2008-08-05T10:32:00.002+08:00

have not been blogging that much. i couldnt be bothered. nothing much to update too, my life is just about school, home, my boyfriend, my friends. basically that. have done POM project report and presentation, i think we did ok. I exceeded my time for presentation. wonder what would happen. passed up commskills report, got the result yesterday and my group got a D. jeez such a bummer. sorry guys we didnt do that well. microecons project is this thursday, submission of report plus presentation. the report is still in the midst of doing it. i hope we can finish it by today and get it over and done with. class test for financial accounting was bad. i got a B. so dissapointed in myself. i'm not sure i can make it. i hope i can. god give me strength.

on 29 july i went for my ITE graduation award ceremony. didnt went to sch for that day. haha that was fun bcos i dont like POM that much. i got my certificate of merit. stupid lah just for the cert i had to wait and sit for so long. there were 1000+ recepients for the COM and plus 100+ students to receive the medalist award. tired lah. n i keep yawning!! lol

for myslef, i'm trying to change. i hope my change is for the good of my relationship with my boyfriend. sometimes it is tiring to fight about the same thing. so i am trying to avoid that and be more open. hope that he appreciates it.

on 2nd august, i went to east coast. i received bITE(bestari ITE) award. yeah! the top 45 malay muslim student getting that. at first i dont felt like going as i have no friend but it turn out well. there we alot of guys than girls. and what luck i had, i was the only girl in the group(we were grouped to play games) we played a few games. of cos the ice breaking game, a game called 'where's my ball?', amazing race, blind soccer and dunno what war game. haha very funny lah. the mentors or whatever i should call them are so funny. had a great time. after everything ended my family came down n we jus sat at east coast till 6pm. the wind was damn syiok.

adam is getting cuter each day. but he get sick easily. so sad. hahaha. that day my group did project at my house and when adam saw all my friends he was so happy. gatal. haha he was smiling so broadly lah at my friends. maybe he like girls. lol!!

basically thats all to say. until next time i guess!

if you share, the burden lessen
try to open up and you might feel better
you have to keep trusting
and you will find your way later

pain

2008-07-24T20:58:00.001+08:00

life still needs to go on
even though how bad it gets
there is pain involve
its difficult to explain
how to
when the heart is hard as a rock
don't worry
life still goes on.....

projects projects and more projects

2008-07-12T15:25:00.002+08:00

what a stressful week i had. didnt do some tutorial qns. not listening well during lectures. always wanna sleep!!! what the hell is happening to me!! school is making me so tired. not sure why. i jus need to sit and absorb. n y am i complaining?? maybe i'm jus the typical human being who likes to complain.

project deadline are coming near. two deadline next week. on wednesday and on friday. oh man i hope all of this end very fast. sooo stress about it. n i have exactly 9 days to do my CSA project n me n my grp have not even start anythg!!! *slaps head* where to find time?? arrgghhhhhhhh!!! there is financial accounting class test on tuesday 6.30pm-7.30pm! u ask me to do test in the evening? u crazy ahh?? tired already n still must do project. jus shoot me!

having "off and on" days with my abang. i jus cant stay happy with him for the whole day n would make the day end badly. haishh. he sometimes dont understand. n i dont understand him sometimes too. *shakes head* what am i to do?? sch is making me so unhappy n the stress the tiredness and all jus making me feel down n down n down.

eun neul is not having a great time too. i wish i could be there for her. as her bestfriend i really want to help as much as i can. but for now i have too many sch work to deal with. i'm so sorry. but i will try to find time! so u jus col n msg me. i'll be willing to listen n help. hyung is sorry for both of us but we need to be strong ya!!! come on, hwaiting!

have not been eating much too. dunno y. but wen i do want to eat i feel so hungry. haha so weird. i need money badly. need to make my ezlink card, pay class tshirt, n also shopping(haha even though thats not important)

it cuts the heart into pieces
it hurts really bad
why not jus end it
sometimes there are reasons for it
but there is no where to go
jus sitting there alone
crying n crying
u can only hear the heartbreaking

re-cap

2008-07-05T15:13:00.005+08:00

so well nothing much has changed since the last entry. on the 3rd july was my mum birthday!! hehe bought her some prezzie. sandals n braclet. glad that she liked it. went to bedok corner to eat. brought along adam. yeaaa it was fun taking care of adam. he is soooo noti!! want to run around n pick up stuffs. i'm such a small girl n i like to carry him. u can know how tired i was! but it was a happy tired. den we sent adam home. went in his house 4 a while. wahhh he has lots lots of toys!! haha he likes elmo. so cute. his elmo can sing. there we lots of picture of him on the wall too!! since he was born till now. ^^

as for school. projects are coming. and deadlines are near. all the projects are half way done n in progress. so tired to do projects!! i'm getting lazy now. not doing my tutorial qns is jus so not me. haha but i have not been doing them. y soo lazy?? i wonder. sch is really making me tired even though i dont do much. i jus sit listen and absorb! *shakes head* hahaha i'm jus so weird. i wore a long skirt on thursday. haha i look femine i guess. that was wad i heard from ppl. haha dat time was the panty hose n now long skirt. wats next?? hahaha we jus have to wait n see

i'm missing my best friend!!! kuss kuss ware r u?? cant we go out n crap like b4? time is going on too fast. it jus feels like i knew u yesterday!! n having fun with u at ITE. miss ite too!! i wonder how is haseena n halimatus. kuss, want to make a class gathering?? but i wonder if the othas would want to.. well if u have time do msg call or see me!!! =)

missing my other bestie too. faizzah its been such a long time i havent seen u!!! how r u?? how is ur project going on?? i didnt msg u to go out 4 lunch bcos these days i dont eat. n i'm scared that u r busy mahh. haha do beep me wen u r free!! ^^

i'm sorry to my abang. been really cold towards him. been saying yes no nothing to him. not making any convo. so sorry. its just the PMS n i jus hate it when we dun have time 4 each otha. both are busy with sch n u busy with work. hate it wen ur sick n i cant help. i was acting weird to u since saturday bcos i jus feel that u have alot going on with u n i dun. u may not understand. its jus that sometimes i feel depressed. n even though i talk to u abt adam, n it seems that i am very happy(yes i am happy)but its not the same. i wish adam was u. =(

life is difficult
you just have to face it and be stronger
love is so hurtful at times
you just have to hold it in and hope it goes away
i wonder how long it can last
but i hope the feeling wont be so hurtful
i want happy feelings ahead
i really do
i hope i can wait for you

more of adam photo! damn cute i tell u want to kiss n kiss him only!! hehe

posing hahaha!!

look at his teeth!! so cute

haha look at the eyes; so big!

my favourite pic!! ^^

term test

2008-06-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

yahoooo!!!!!! i got 88/100 for my microecons. hehehe did study for it n the paper is kinda easy. so happy. but my financial accounitng abit dissapointing only 41.5/50. yea its still good but i expected better. haishhhhh not strong in my theory part thats y cannot score lah. seeeeeeee how how??

today after sch went out with the one and only; my abang. we ate nasi lemak. yumyum very nice. hehehe jus sat around n have fun. den went to 7eleven to buy gulp. den sit at the playground near my hse. hehe he went to the playground n played. but i sat down playing his hp game. diner dash. very fun u know!! hahaha

oh ya today i wore a dress with panty hose. hahaha look like ballerina. i wore the dress b4 but i wore with jeans. nobody noticed. but wen i wear like that oni they say wahhh u wear dress. hahaha so weird. but my fren n my abang say wear leggings better. myabe i look weird. haha but its ok. jus trying it out. ^^

life is unpredictable
you might not know whats coming
just be prepared for anything
make the impossibe possible
LETS DO IT!! =)

ezlink card

2008-06-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

oh man!!!! what a day today. i didnt went to 11am tutorial. i was taking care of adam. my mum need to go to my sis sch. i dun mind so ya it was ok. so i reach sch at abt 1, meet my abang we went to the library played comp. do abit of his powerpoint then we played game. bomberman. i won a few rounds then him. of cos a sore loser like me was not happy. hahaha after that went to lecture(POM). and guess what i searched my ezlink card in my bag n couldnt find it!!! i was so wondering where i drop it. i went back to the LT couldnt find it. then went back library oso dun have den go one-stop centre oso dun have. aiyaaaa.. but i dun feel that worried. hahaa dunno y. maybe i tink some one wld return back to the sch. so yaaa....

went back hm n played with adam. hehehe so cute. he talks n talks but u jus cant understand what he is saying. his father fetch him quite early today. so sad cant play more with him. cute boy jus want to kiss n kiss n kiss him!!! ^^

oh ya got my POM term test. i got 29/40. sad man. didnt know what went wrong. well what to do. jus have to try harder. =/

some things are not to be told
but when u know about it
and try to pretend u dont know
its hard
make u sad
u want to tell that u know
but u jus hope the person would jus make the first move
well thats what i call life

Annyoung!!! its me!!!

2008-06-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

its been such a long long time not updating my blog

must been about a month already!!!

hahaha.. collecting dust can see??? hahaha

well my life is still the same. not much frens. the same people i see everday. but i'm missing my old time best fren!!! Eun Neul ahhh reading your blog makes me sad. when can we meet? lets talk lots n lots n lots of stuff!! now my break is over i wonder when i can see u. n ya i still haven give u the bigbang tshirt. u know what the quality not that good u know but i bet u will still be glad when u see it. so nice tau!!

i have not seen faizzah too!! both of us being busy n all have not contact much. hope to see her soon since the break is over. but there is soooo much work to do. deadlines are coming, so many things to do. project here n there!!! OMG!!!!

hahahahahaha

i could still relax u know y?? bcos my mum is babysiting a baby!! so cute!!! keeping playing with him during the holidays. so fun!! only wen he poo poo i give to my mum!! haha! he is such a clever n adorable kid. his name is adam. but sometime i call him adams. hahaha mak salleh mane ntah. kekeke

during the sch break, besides playing with the baby; of cos i played with my abang. hehe we played arcade. now different. use card no token. den so expensive. most game cost $1. haha but we still played. there is this sweet machine. nice to play but i get sad easily bcos sometimes we dun get sweets or not that much. n pity my abang will be sad looking at me. hehehe dun be!! its just that i'm such a sore loser. i really am. dun like to lose. get upset easily. hope u understand. then there is this game argghhhh so irritating u need to stack up the blocks perfectly n u can win a price. when its the last block to stack i always miss it!!! so frustrating!!

oh ya i got meet eun neul that day. she bought noni along. hehe so cute!!! like the way she talks. she was afraid at first after sometime she was ok. eun neul bring her along one day!! want to play with her. n of cos oso want to talks lots of stuff with u.

i've not been eating much. eat a little full. but den hungry again but lazy to eat. maybe sick n tired of eating rice. haha. i always want to eat this eat that but then later cannot finish. no wonder i cant grow!! hahaha

well thats mostly the things i can remember. hope i'll be more bothered to update my blog. hehe

would want to change the blogskin one day. yeaaaa one day... ^^

this is the baby, adam photos. very cute!!

sorry blur abit

cant be bothered to rotate it

my mum n adam =)

here and there

2008-05-21T09:53:00.000+08:00

sorry to ppl who reads my blog (well i guess not many hahaha)
cant be bothered to update. so lazy.

getting use to poly life now. have two fun friends, haslindah n aisha. both of them so crazy sometimes n funny. sch work is heavy for me. learning new topic every week. there this e-learning thing and i dont like it. i'm always so blur. *shakes head* i have 5 subjects n out of 5 there is 3 projects. so many!!! n my CP said yr 1 projects are not so hard. i was like WTH. yesterday i had an in-class assignment kinda like a test. it went well. but not sure if i wrote crap or not. hope i was on the right track. really hope to get at least a B. i know why i'm so stress at poly. first i learn one topic every week. i dont usually revise. second every lecture there is tutorial qns. sometimes i dont get the lecture how to do the qns?? third in ite everythg seems easy n even though sometimes i find it hard i could manage. but in poly its so hard, i feel tired easily. most of my friends wld know that i got a straight gpa of 4 in ite. n i know i cant get that in poly. i always want to be the best. but now i know i cant. i feel so down. yea i dont wish to compete with my classmates; i'm competing with myself. a high target for myself. i jus wish i could manage n get a gpa of 3.5 or higher.

on friday; 16 May, had CCN day. my class sold floats(gassy drink + ice cream) and milo dinosaur. floats was 2 bucks n the milo is 1 buck. many bought the milo, maybe bcos its cheaper. my job was to hold the sign n move around to let ppl see. haha. quite tiring but it was fun. then a girl tap me saying she like big bang n like TOP too!! haha n we highed-5 each other. this happened bcos i was wearing my bigbang TOP tshirt that day. hehehe. wonder who she is. well after getting tired holding up the sign i went walking with aisha n tiantian. its was so noisy ppl selling their stuffs. i bought sausages, my own class float, a tasmanian baby doll for my sis, shoes(damn nice; tiantian oso buy), handphone accesories, candy floss(for my abang), lollipops. mostly that!! haha so many right?? i spent like nobody business. hahaha

i didnt went for graduation day. i woner who went. i heard many didnt go. haha. i miss ite. wish to see them one day. hmmm. i msged farahiza on thursday(15 May) asking whether se go or not. she oso didnt go; didnt feel quite well. haha i told her all the sad thgs i felt in sch n she gave me words of encouragement. i feel so sad reading it. hahaha. even though we were'nt close in ite she was a good fren too!! hope she is doing fine in sch too!! farahiza hwaiting!!

my dongsaeng was so kind. i need to print some stuffs and my printer no ink. n when i asked other ppl all printer oso no ink. what a day it was!! then i told dongsaeng that i was sad nobody can print for me n she say she could help. i was shocked. she stayed so far n wanted to help me. so on wednesday(14 May) she came down all the way to tampines to give me the things i needed. i bought her kinder bueno as to say thank you!! n ya thank you so much dongsaeng!! u r the best!! hope to see u real soon!!!

back to sch. i really hate the subject microeconomics. i dont like the lecturers. really i dont. i dont quite understand the subject oso. jus understand a few. how to pass like that. for CSA its ok. but this subj is got e-learning one; so leceh u know. aigoooo. F Acc is ok bcos i know it so well. so its jus a recap. POM is ok. i now understand the way the teacher teach during tutorial. n lastly APEL. haha that nothing lah. so ya for now my worry is microecons. hmmmmm

guess what i'm falling in love with Anycall haptic phone!!! so nice!!! so cool!! so much better than iphone. haha how i wish i could own it!! so expensive!! aigooo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIkBbWsa_dc&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfaGzVuhgxM&feature=related

there is a SGVIP big bang tshirt!!! i gonna buy it!!! hehehehe look at the design. nice right?? even though plain jus words but its so cool. see the pink letters it spells GREAT!! hehehehe i'm lovin it!!

that wraps it all!! see ya wen i see ya!! =)

poly scares me

2008-04-30T09:41:00.002+08:00

didnt care any less to update the blog. i feel so tired since sch started. maybe i'm mentally not ready yet. i feel that things are going too fast and i cant catch up. now i understand why ppl say poly is different. it does feel so different. i have to be independent. i'm responsible for my own doings. i didnt even do my tutorial hwk. my classmates did. that made me soo scared.

during POM lesson yest the class rep was praised saying that her answer was A+ material. i was like what the.... my english is soo bad. i'm scared that i cant score. i'm scared that i cant answer qns correctly. ya making mistakes is gd so u learn from it. but i jus have no confidence. i need to read n revise everyday after sch. but i cant. its not a habit i did in ite. its so difficult for me now. i so wish now that i didnt get to study in poly. ya stupid me i shld be thankful, i know. i'm jus so down n sad.

jus now i jus log on to vbus. i have a research to do already and have to be passed up by this friday. jeez. too fast. i'm planning to do it on thursday since there is no sch. but how to research. i dont know where to start. *shakes head*

i'm having such a hard time. my classmates all seem so smart. they answer qns so chim. its like they know everythg. i want to do my best too. but i have no confidence. so scared feel like crying. ppl ard me dont understand. yea u ppl give me advices, but u dont know how i feel inside. i feel so alone.

i wish u r here with me dongsaeng. u always motivate me and give me support when i'm down. we cld study together and do stuffs together. but now i have to be independent n i'm scared. yea i'm using the word scared so much. bcos i really am. can i cope for 3 years? can i tahan and do my best? i'm having doubts.

*crys*

poly life

2008-04-22T10:49:00.003+08:00

well i hated my poly orientation. too many cheers noise n ppl. i've made my mind not to like poly. going there to jus get a diploma

however things are going better. yest was the start of sch. followed my abang to his lecture. then meet up classmates at the library. classmates are ok. its jus that i feel they dont like me n i cant click easily. they are so enthu. so into class bonding. well its ok. sometimes i jus feel left out.

i'm missing ite so much. jus heard that dongsaeng is not going to grad day. now i'm not sure if i want to go or not. whats the use if she is not there. hmmmm.... i'm jus staying positive n saying to myself that things happen for a reason.

i didnt update my day with faizzah. we cabot orientation in friday. spent time wif her. tok non-stop. haha. n i thought i wld feel awkward ard her. then on sat ask her to accompany me go shopping. went to bugis. wahhhh all the clothes nice n cheap!! most of my clothes are 10 bucks. cool. had a great time with her. happy to keep in touch more often with her. ^^

to dongsaeng
dongsaeng ah, hyung is sooo sad wen ur not here to make me laugh. miss the way u disturb me. or calling me names. miss the days wen we crap ard. miss it wen u give me advice or motivation. i really hope to still see u. do update me on whats happening in ur life. u know that even if i have no time, i can still lend u my ears. BOGOSHIPUHYO!!!!

HATE IT

2008-04-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

NO UPDATES
HATE SCHOOL
MISS ITE SOOOO MUCH
FINE IF I'M A LONER
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS

T-SHIRTS

2008-04-16T10:22:00.004+08:00

wahhh its has been such a long time i didnt update
nothing much to update actually

i've been accepted to TP. All forms are being sent already. Orientation is tmr!!! (too fast) I am soo not ready to go to school. I keep having mix feelings. Like am i ready, is this what i really want, will i have any friends, so much things are goin tru my mind!!! ahhhh!!!

I miss my ITE friends. Esp kuss. Miss the time when we crap around. Everythg lah!!! I am so not an independent person. Hate being alone. *shakes head* what am i to do???

Miss my abang too. It feels like i dont spent much time with him. Sch starting soon. Will i be busy?? Can i still meet him quite often? I wonder..

But among my sadness. I was abit happy yesterday. AT LAST I"VE RECEIVED MY BIG BANG T-SHIRTS!!! YEAH!!! However its too big for me!!! (even though the size is XS) But what the hell i dont care. I'm still wearing it. Maybe i'll wear it one day when i go to sch. hehehe SHOW THE WORLD ABT BIG BANG!!! hehehe

Today i might be going out wif my mum. Buying some clothes. Hmm.. I'll update when i have the mood to..

i miss u lots n lots!! ^^

(TOP T-shirt, its kinda plain but who cares ^^)

(BigBang is VIP, see how big the tshirt is hehehe)

bullshit

2008-04-09T09:40:00.001+08:00

VIDEOS ARE MY PLAYMATE.
THEY MAKE ME HAPPY.
IF THERE ARE NO VIDEOS MAYBE I'LL BE DEAD BY NOW.

updates

2008-04-08T12:23:00.010+08:00

been lazy to blog
changed my blogskin
love the skin, lollipop yumyum!!

lets see, where shld i start?? well i'm thankful to god that i got in to TP. I'm sad that my frens didnt get tru. I really really wonder why. I think they bias ah. Not fair. I have been slacking at hm, didnt go out. Stayed at hm and rot. But on saturday went out to JB to celebrate my success. Went with my family, we watched Evolusi: KL Drift. Fun show not much talking but car drifting. However on saturday thare was an outing to suntec for ygbb. They were showing clips from Big Bang THEREAL concert!!! ahhh i sooo wanted to go!!! -.- well at JB i bought new shoes. Didnt get the shoe that i wanted; feet too small the shoe cutting too big. Lastly settled for white shoes that cld fit me. Nothing much happen on sunday. Stayed at hm n jus watched tv.

On monday, my mom had start working. 8am-6pm. She had to cook early in the morning so i don't have to cook; she knows that i'm lazy hehe i love u mom =) so i jus cleaned the hse n wash the laundry. After that watch some videos on the comp while waiting for my dearest abang to msg me n meet him. We went to the library to return books n off we went to TM to LongJohnSilver to eat. You know the traffic light from the interchange to go to library there, there were 2 traffic police officer catching ppl who are jaywalking. hahaha mostly were teens. how unlucky!! I didnt want to eat but he bought me a meal already so i had to eat. However i was more thirsty than hungry. After that went to the arcade n watched some ppl dancing at the parapara machine. I still wonder how they dance. It amazed me everytime i watch. haha. Then went to NTUC bought girls stuff a drink. Saw hong wei in the lift. Wonder did he got into poly not. After all that is done we sat down outside TM there to talk n played hp games. I laughed so much that i coughed. We took some photos too. So many kinds of pose. hahaha. Oh ya!! My abang has cut his hair. Look more neater n good looking =)

For today, i'll be going out again later. updates will be tmr ^^

My New White Shoe

Photos taken on 7/4/2008

i tink i need to cut my hair; see so tebal n long hehehe ^^

love this pic ^^

"twist!!!"

abang so cute!!!

"omona!!!"

New haircut; side view

Exams results

2008-04-03T09:53:00.002+08:00

WOOOHOOOOO!!!
yea yea yest results made me sooooo happy!!
Both A for accounting n auditing..
oh yea!!
cld maintain my gpa of 4
now waiting for results to go to poly..

went out wif kuss yest
had sooo much fun
long time nvr see her ^^
she seems to be smaller.. hehe i mean loss some weight
u go girl!!
haha
we went to plaza sing to watch movie but den change of plans
went to fareast to eat at Ramen Ten
yummy!!
i ate spicy lala ramen.. damn shiok!!
after that kuss sooo gatal want to watch movie
so went to lido n watch the ophanage
its was in spanish
nice story kinda stupid in the end
it was scary yet sad..
then we went back hm

n my stupid father was like u didnt get ur bursary right
so i need to pay for ur poly fees ah?
den i say of cos
n guess what he said no need to go sch ah
stop sch
WHAT THE HELL!!
made me angry
at first happy that i cld get a chance to poly n now this

n went i tell u abt it, u didnt even try to make me happy
asked so many qns
made me more angry
what do u expect me to do??
if i knew that was ur reaction i wldnt have told u

DBSK

2008-03-27T15:57:00.009+08:00

after super junior its Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK)

They have at least 3 names DBSK, THSK and TVXQ

I love them too bcos of their determination n crappines

Unlike super junior they are more celeb type

what i mean is they preserve their image n dont fool ard so much

that was y i like super junior first but after i watched variety shows

that has DBSK in them; then i knew the other side of them

Now they are in Japan i hope they come back to Korea soon

Miss them soo much; i kinda dont like japanese songs (hehe no offense)

I was still happy bcos they do come back n did variety shows ^^

i love it when they do shows like that; they seem too serious sometimes

Firstly its the leader; U-Know YunHo

i dont like him bcos of his attitude

sometimes he seem "action" to me (no offense)

however he is doing a good job as a leader

he speaks very well in interviews

something weird abt him is he has manboobs hehehe

Next is YoungWoong JaeJoong

He is my favourite

Even though people say he looks very cold during first impession

i liked him bcos of that smooth face (pretty boy)

i like the way he sings too.. has good vocals

However he is the most horny n crappy in the grp

He talks w/o thinking; straightforward

u can see that during variety shows

Then theres Micky YooChun

He was recruited from the states

He has a deep voice that can sound greasy sometimes

But he has a funny personality with his weird/funny expressions

Xiah Junsu; the one dongsaeng likes

He has a cute face; with his smile girls wld love him

and he has a funny laugh n he can imitate a dolphin voice hahaha

He has the best vocal in my opinion; husky

like it when he dance too

he is oso best friends wif super junior EunHyuk

Lastly its ChoiKang ChangMin

The youngest but the strongest

he looks like a cute boy when he first debut

but now so manly

i pity him bcos he doesnt have a lot of fans like the others do

he is sssoooo adorable i wonder y.. maybe he doesnt come out much in variety shows

maybe his hyung(s) bully him hehehe

All the best to DBSK; do come to Singapore!!!
DBSK HWAITING!!!!

Super Junior

2008-03-26T08:27:00.009+08:00

nothing to update
so i'll jus upload photos
^^

First of all its Super Junior. They are the first grp to caught my eye when dongsaeng
introduce k-pop to me. I love them to bits bcos of their personalities. Even though they
are celebs, they dont act like one. They make u feel like u r one of them. They are soo
easy going n full of laughter. They are jus sooo i dunno full of crappiness when they want
to be. However when they are on stage, they are very serious n try their very best to give
u a good performance. ^^

(Leader of the grp; sometimes very serious but also soo crappy)

(He is soooo self praise-able n like to act cute
but u'll jus like him cos he'll make u laugh)

(The china guy; still not so fluent in his
korean but he is jus charming in his own way)

(The not so popular guy; he is ok but sometimes he tries too hard)

(The dance machine; he just so adorable n witty)

(The most hansome guy in the grp; he is soo
polite n with that killer smile u'll fall for him)

(One of the youngest; the way he laugh is funny n
sometimes he acts like he is a is small kid)

(The one who came from US; doesnt talk much
but his acting skills is great)

(The last to join the grp; he always try his best n has the best vocal)

(The tough guy; he is sometimes naggy n
talkative but very funny)

(2nd dance machine; his feet really smell but he is soo
adorable when he wants to be)

(Soft guy; he make look abit sissy but dance n
sing well. He is my most fav he jus look too
damn cute, unnie(s) wld like him)

(The big guy; even though of his size he dance
very well n he likes to make jokes)

i'll update the other grp who i like later.. this is jus the first
hehehe
SUPER JUNIOR HWAITING!!! =)

tuesday

2008-03-25T09:50:00.002+08:00

well i have nothing much to update
on sunday i went out with my family
den monday went out with u
we ate at food culture; ban mian
yummy!! haha
i was soo full; couldnt finish it up

today plan is to go out again
dunno what to tell my dad
later he say go out again
difficult having a dad like him

i'm sooo worried for my sis
haishhh not gonna say anythg here
jus that i wish its not true
*shakes head* haishhhh

i'm still bum that i have not enuff money!!
haha
well nothing much left to say..
update later..

its me again

2008-03-22T17:55:00.004+08:00

sheeeshhhh
its raining again
i'm in front of the comp again
nothing to do
watching videos is what i do

u know what
thinking bout my life its . . . . theres jus no fun
when i go out its only with u
thats it
or either my mum
dont i have enuff friends
pathetic man

ppl hu have bf have otha life too
but my world is jus u
i know i shld be happy
but i dont tink ppl know how i feel

i'm not the old nadirah i mean the sec sch nadirah
i tink . . . . i dunno
i wanna meet faizzah but i have not set a date yet..
no money
thats the first prob
the second prob is i'm scared that i'll feel awkward
its been such a long time i have not met her...
sheeeshhh shibal

i'm soooo missing ITE now..
even though i dun have alot of friends or memories
sheeeeshhh

i still wanna go meet big bang..
how??
anybody wanna sponsor?? ^^
i'll jus keep dreaming i guess..
*dreaming*

boring!!

2008-03-22T13:08:00.006+08:00

yo'll its saturday n its BORING!!
yest was such a slow day
stayed hm all day
haishhh
nothing to blog too

zaza jus told me that big bang is gonna be at thailand on 7 june
i soooo wanna go
but i have no $$$
how i wish i got the $400 bursary
damn it man!!!

what a lame life!!!
what the hell i'm jus plain lazy thats y
dun wanna work but want $$$

sheeeshhhhh shibal
shoot me!!!

(Big Bang oppa(s) WAIT FOR ME!!!!)

thursday

2008-03-20T09:37:00.002+08:00

hmm.. what happened yesterday??
well like i said i watch some videos after updating the blog
till 12 i tink den i bathed den ate..
after that i jus had nothing to do!!!
look at mum playing the comp
waiting 4 ma turn again to play.. so ya..
i waited n waited
i listened to songs n sang along
irritated my mum soooo much!!! hahaha
n delibrately sang so not nice!!!
n it rained.. hahaha

ard 3 plus i got to use the comp
watch more videos
den close the comp at 5 plus
den waited for my sis to come back hm to eat

at night teach my sister some maths
den watch tv
slept at 1200am

hehe
whats gonna happen today...
i dunno haha
but looks so dull today
like its gonna rain
hmmm...
gonna go out wif u
cant wait hehehe
lets go out n eat!!!!
yumyum!!!

wednesday

2008-03-19T09:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday i said i went to watch movie rite?
well went to watch Horton
funny show.. there this cute furry animal that is soo weird
forgot its name
after watching we went to play arcade
stupid gun
got smth wrong with it
i couldnt shoot the zombie properly
damn it
made my hand easily tired
haha

after that went to pasar malam buy some food
we sat outside TM and ate
well thats it mostly

went back hm n went 4 my bed
haha
den stupid father angry at my sis 4 nothing
crazy guy

after that i bath n ate
teach my sister maths
haha its sooo funny
i was like shouting when i teach her
dunno y
well then i watched tv till 1230am
watched CSI n Bones
cool shows
haha

for today i dun tink there is much to do
have not bathed yet
i guess i'll need to clean the house den eat den watch tv den i dunno
staying at hm is soooo boring!!
lets rot man!! =)

i'm off to watch some videos
caus!

the holidays are here!!

2008-03-18T09:43:00.004+08:00

has been such along time i didnt update my blog
well jus plain lazy
haha
not much to update anyway

at last sch has end!!!!
exams are over!!
lets talk abt the exams
accounting was hell
not so bad lah.. but the way the qns was asked not like the revision paper
too tricky!!!
dunno if i cld score for it.. hmmm..
whats more shocking is auditing!!!
hahaha i was soooooo stress out for auditing
dun believe ask kuss
i think she get fed up i keep msging her..
haha so sorry bout that ya ;)
to my surprise the paper was sooo easy
well got a few qns i cant ans lah
cant remember
but overall i was happy n i think i cld score for it
jus waiting for the results now...

so thats over..
now i miss my friends!!!
i feel so bored at hm
well i do go out but i miss sch
miss my teachers
miss my class
hmmmm..
i've become a lazy bum!
haha cant be bothered to find a job too =)

poly..
hmmm..
when the results coming out??
haha see i dun even know
what the hell..

well i've been going out wif him
so fun!!!
hehe get to play the zombie again!!
shoot shoot!!
haha i think i've become better
hahaha
i feel happy when he is around
=) i'm full of laughters

home is BORING!!
when can i go out wif u kuss??
when can i go out wif u eza??
haishhh
well i need money
how to get?? i have to work
but thats the prob too lazy hmmm...

am i taking the BTT or not
my dad has not even say anythg abt it
hmmm..
my mum told me to take it together wif eza n him
but how?
hmmm..

i'm hungry
i get hungry easily these days
hmm.. but i still dun eat
haha thats why i dun grow =D

will be going out again today!!
maybe watching movie..
so i'll update later
byebye

[our latest photo together =)]

wohuuu its friday!!

2008-03-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

oh man at last i have studied
started yesterday
ok ah i guess
i can do it
i yet to study all the units but cld score 32/40 for MCQ
i'm good
i know i am
wahahaha
jus kidding

happy to see u today
even though i was unhappy n made u angry
i'm so sorry
still had a great time
thank you =)

accounting exma on mon
jus cant wait
gonna miss my ITE classmates n friends

haishhhhh
do keep in touch
hehehe

damn it i'm hungry
i'm always hungry
hahaha
but dont eat
dats why i dun grow
hahaha

well i've been listening to 96.3fm cool K-time
sooo cool
i've requested last farewell from big bang n she read my request!!
haha so happy
yest the dj read kuss request so fun to hear my name hehehe
kuss thx!! =)
there are english n mandarin lesson
for a few minutes
i followed along
hahaha
of cos for mandarin lesson n not english

hmmm what am i gonna do after exams??
slack at hm??
my dad wants me to take driving license
but i'm not that sure
kinda scared
no friend mahhh
hahaha
hmmmm...

ouh man i need money but too lazy to work
how??

eugene ah..
gonna miss your crap in class

Ms tan ahh..
gonna miss your broken english
hehehe n oso the way u repeat your sentences

Ms Belinda Ng
gonna miss you so much!!
your the best teacher i ever had
hope i could say my last goodbye to b4 u leave ITE college east

haseena n matus ahhh..
gonna miss talking to you guys too
even though we dont talk that much but still
we were together since year 1
=)

kuss ahh!!!
lets go to TP!!!
we have to stay as best friends you know!!!
if not i'm gonna find u
hahaha

QE/QT ahhh!!!
gonna miss the noisy class ever
n the laziest class(well sometimes)
hahaha

so sad thinking abt all this
hmmm
see you guys in the future =)

...............

2008-03-05T09:59:00.004+08:00

having probs wif msn
keep giving ppl stupid links
n its not me hu givE!!
virus attack!!!
scared kena hack

change to a new email
i add 13 contacts only
hahaha

didnt bother to blog
too lazy n tired
all bcos of msn

i have not even start studying for audit
wads happening to me?
OMG!!

i'm too relax thats the prob
but i jus cant wait for the exams to end

am i gonna work??
haha
guess not
i'm a lazy bum
i want to eat
hungry
have not even bathed

n ya i delete my friendster!!
haha have not been using it
wahahaha

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

exams coming!!

2008-02-29T21:23:00.003+08:00

one week and two days before exams are here!!!
ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not ready for auditing!!
how how???
its ok
i tink i can do it
hwaiting!!

listen to 96.3fm for the last two days
quite nice
k-time
hehe only 9 to 11 pm
the dj talk so cute n funny
korean mah
hahaha
i want to request big bang song ah
hahaha
den den the station teach korean community here to speak english n mandarin
hahaha
so funny
i joined it too!!

got to meet u today n yest
so happy!!!
played arcade again yest
bang bang shoot the zombie!!
hehe
so fun
den played soccer
oso fun!!!

cant wait for sch to end!!
hurry up!!!
hehehe

eza lets meet ya!!!
cant wait to see you
hey u wanna rebond ur hair
i want to cut my hair
hehe

i'm happy i'm happy

2008-02-26T20:15:00.002+08:00

yea yea!!
today was so draggy at sch
keep doing mistakes during accounting lesson
den auditing lesson was sooooo sleepy!!!
mrs sim u sooo boring
well maybe not u maybe the subject itself too many thgs to memorise

today meet u again!!
i sooo happy
we ate at food culture
i ate chicken black pepper with noodles
soo nice
dongsaeng lets go eat that n u try it
den u eat ban mian
wahhhh the soup soo delicious!!!
hehe
wen i'm full i'm happy
but sleepy too
haha

den we tok n played games
hehe so fun
now i miss you

gd luck 4 ur last exam
do well ya!!
hwaiting
^^

made me sad 4 nothing

2008-02-25T21:37:00.003+08:00

F***K

MADE MY DAY WORST

WHY???

DID I DO ANYTHG WRONG??

AKU NIE APE?

PEREMPUAN TKDE MARUAH PE??

AKU TAHU AKU TAK SEMPURNA

BUT WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!

BIG BANG

2008-02-24T18:33:00.002+08:00

yea yea yea
nothing much happen last few days
went out today!!
to get my big bang pouch
hehehe ^^

damn happy
at last i own smth from big bang
haha
call me crazy i dun care
cos i LOVE BIG BANG
haha

after that when back hm
cooked tom yam soup
yumyum
hehehe

tmr sch cant wait
cant wait for everythg to end!!

i wanna go poly
hahaha

but will i ever get freedom??
jus hope its a happy ending

(front view)

(Back View)

(heart-like zipper;one side silver)

(heart-like zipper;one side red)

(has 3 comparments)

sad

2008-02-21T21:37:00.003+08:00

what a day

went out to see him

i was happy

but for awhile only

the phone kept ringing

made me mad

he didnt know

made myself sleepy

damn it

was happy when we play at arcade

so funny

played shooting zombie game

played spot the difference game

hmmm

lasted for awhile

didnt smile at him when i went back

haish

now have to wait till monday

damn

went back hm and slept for awhile

too mad n sad

den ate n watch tv

now playing the comp

he still not msging

WTH

watching american idol later

caus

do i look like her abit?? hahahaha

(Yoo Bin; My fav girl in Wondergirls)

(well actually puffed up my cheeck trying to look chubby; hahaha)

dots...

2008-02-20T21:18:00.003+08:00

oh man what a day i had today

Ms Tan was going to fast when she was teaching

HEADACHE!!!!

its like i was trying to remember how to do

she was like zoom do this zoom do that

aigooo...

all bcos someone gave her a bad comment abt her

and she goes who is the person?

eugene find the murderer

haha

cher u so paranoid

How????!!!

Exams coming and i'm still not studying

So relax

eugene carried my bag tooday

exchange for a while

haha n he carried my bag

haha so funny

n Ms Tan believed that it was my bag

then she was asking why my bag with eugene

hahaha

didnt she realise that eugene had been using the orange bag??

during lesson i tink eugene bag was in the way

n she was like nadirah can i put ur bag away

hahaha

n eugene was like kidding ard nadirah can i take mp3 from your bag?

hahaha

went for a stupid job interview yesterday

lucky kuss accompanied me

she told me her story

and it seems familiar to when i went for the interview

dont want to get con

stupid people

now i feel like graduating soon

haha

cant wait to get out from ITE

hehe

its not that i dont like it

its jus that...

i dunno

hahaha

i'll miss my noisy class

Lame eugene

seeing mood spoilers

hahaha

gossip abt them

hehehe

miss my funny teacher

Ms Tan i'll make u proud!!

^^ LMAO

i wish i have lots of money

do what i want to do

buy what i want to buy

hehe

but i'm lazy to work

eugene here's your photo again i took today

kinda blur bcos i zoom

ready or not

2008-02-16T15:20:00.002+08:00

its saturday n its sooo boring
my life has become duller
no more fun
i dun tink i smile much these days

exams is coming n i have not study yet
whats happening to me??
am i ready for poly?

i feel so sad
my best friend is having a tough time
and i wish i could help her
i jus feel her hurt
*sobs*

argghhhh
i dun even have friends
haha
feel so lonely
lucky i have him

exams
exams
exams
help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll go crazy

what do ppl see when they look at me???
everywhere i go ppl keep looking at me one kind
even my mum notice it
why??
whats wrong wif me??

my head is going blank
i dun even know what to do
i know i shld study
i can't

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

friday is here

2008-02-15T20:28:00.001+08:00

at last its friday

well actually its not like a long wait

time goes so fast these days

today in class(accounting) was very noisy

many ppl shouting; calling for teacher n frens

"cher, print now ah??

cher, how to do??

where to go??

cher, come here..

cher, mark for me

cher what shld i do??

farahiza how to do?

eqa where to go?

i cannot print mine

help me"

hahaha

so many things u can hear

so fast n noisy

auditing was boring

sian

then after sch follow matus n seena eat at KFC

they wanted to do their cdp project

i jus followed to pass time

went to met him today

so happy

but he is abit irritating

making jokes when i'm hungry n tired

with stomach cramps

aigoooo

spent time at MAC

i took eugene photo in class jus now

haha

he is sooo irritating in class

eugene here is your photo

told u to take a look at my blog rite??

hahaha

(took it when i called his name, n he turned; u tink cute ah u do liddat??)

(took it when he wasn't looking)

cramps

2008-02-14T21:08:00.002+08:00

having cramps and this time its so painful
hate it
why cant it be painless n less stressful for me

i've submitted my application for poly
1st-TP accounting and finance
2nd-TP hospitality and tourism management
3rd-TP financial business informatics (i dunno wad the hell is it)
4th-NP accountacy
5th-SP accountancy

hahaha
i actually choose 3 den i scared i dun get it i suay
i badly wanna do accounting
dun wanna do smth i'm not use to
n i wanna go TP!!!
oh pls let me get in
*pray hard*

i'm still sick
keep coughing
n i'm tired of it
makes me wanna vomit

he is sick too
not fully well
hope to see u tmr

feeling sick

2008-02-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

i was sick yesterday
didnt went to school
felt so tired n miserable
she came to my hse n pass me hwk papers
i guess she was ready to tok to me

today i am still sick
keep coughing
was so tiring
haha
tired of coughing
she tok to me today
she even ask me to eat together
i guess she is ok already
thank god
if not i wld feel weird
but now i'll try to beware of what i'll say

so tired of sch
exams are coming
but i dun feel it
i am jus so tired

tmr is application for poly
TP is my choice
my only choice
haha
hope to get it
*prays hard*

still didnt meet u
u still sound sick
y??
hmm get well soon

back from KL

2008-02-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

back from KL yesterday morning
went shopping n got lots of clothes
yeah!!
but now i'm sick
flu n cough
hate when that happens

went to sch today
so lonely
she is not talking to me
its ok.. i'll wait
my fault anyway

got headaches
walk back hm from sch slowly
feel so down

didnt get to meet him
he is sick too
wanted to tells lots abt my trip
the good and bad
hmmm
have to wait i guess

i feel down

2008-02-06T18:30:00.000+08:00

huh?
u said i hurt u??
funny huh?
guess what u had done to me?
did u know?
i guess u didnt
u know y??
cos i forgive n forget
u say i dun understand
well i'm trying
there must be reasons y i did stuffs to u
did u ever ask?
did u know i had cried for u
did u know?
cos i didnt need to tell
cos i forgive n forget
i try to understand
u know y i forgive n forget
cos i owe u lots
i know where i stand
cos i treasure u
n guess what
i'm not perfect
so sorry bout that

i am sorry

2008-02-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

i know i'm not a good friend
thats why i dont have alot of friends
i thought you were ok
i guessed wrong
i'm sorry
*lower head*

TOP

2008-02-02T11:02:00.000+08:00

i want to wear this for graduation day.. nice???

hehe.. but ware shld i buy it; wif my size??

well i'm bored n have nothing to do..

today i'm going out wif u!! YEAH!!

cant wait.. hehehe

well i dun have much to say so i'll jus upload some big bang photos..

hehehe =D

(dongsaeng look at TOP face!! *lol*)

(i jus love their cartoon pics; so cute!!)

(i love his long hair; adore the spec so much!!)

tired

2008-02-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

haishhh.. what a day today..
rain so heavy.. didnt get to meet u.. =(
hmm.. when i reached hm i slept.. haha
den woke up and bathe n watch kinship
stupid show!! make me so angry watching it..
hahaha
i very emotional mah..
today at sch nothing much happen
i got 85 for the stupid CA.. hahaha
= / nothing much to say..
dongsaeng not working anymore
that is so great.. can go sch together now..
i want to eat ramen ten..
hehehe
very nice but expensive.. how...??
hmmm...
when will i work..
i dunno what type of work suits me the best
i'm such a lazy person..
i'm hungry now!!
hahaha.. i want to eat nice food..
when do i get to see big bang???
soo saddd...

Damn CA

2008-01-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

stupid CA paper
so difficult
actually not difficult.. i jus dun understand the bad debts!!
watever.. its so yesterday.. haha
today nothing much happen..
seena didnt cum..
sch was dull
learnt new topic
came in late for class
but i was happy cos dongsaeng its not working anymore!
YEAH!!
hehehe
i'm liking big bang all over again!! esp TOP!!
hehe
n matus overheard "bapok" talking abt big bang!!!
NO!!!!!!
u cant like big bang!!!
its onli for me n dongsaeng!!!
shit lah..
*cry*
why??!!
go like someone else!!
daesung is dongsaeng's n TOP is mine!!
hahaha
i'm crazy right??
but hu cares..

BIG BANG IS GREAT!!

(look at GD hair n TOP goggles??; so cool)

i'm back2

2008-01-27T14:06:00.000+08:00

b-i-g BANG BANG
hahaha
i'm back after such a long time from the last post..
my napha was hell!!! hahaha
my 5 stations was ok.. but my 2.4 run was *shakes head*
i feel like dying!! hahaha
the next day i had cramps all over..
esp my leg.. cant even sit or stand w/o saying "ahhahh"
hehehe
well nothing much happen
keep doing revision for accounts.. my CA tmr
haishh
i still not sure where to go after ite.. hmmm..
i feel like i am slacking.. but i dunno
jus no mood..
anyway i'm buying big bang tshirts!! yea!!! hehehe
cant wait to have it!!
YESS!!! but i wish big bang will come to SG one day.. haishh
i feel like eating donuts these days..
or anythg pastries.. hehehe
i wish i wont go fat..
i jus wanna grow taller.. hehehe
^^ i'm back to myslef now..
glad the PMS is gone..

f***ing day

2008-01-22T09:17:00.000+08:00

today napfa!!!!!!!!!
arghhh!! i scared i cant do it!!
i wanna pass..
hahaha
well i'm feeling much better now
guess the PMS is gone
at last!!
hahahaha
well i've got nothing much to say
stupid day yesterday!!
mrt broke down
took the f***king bus!!
old ppl wanna squeeze in
the bus is like full!!
cant they see??
aigooo
hate to take the bus to sch
well i'm hungry now
have not bathe yet..
hmm..
today will be a hot n tiring day
=(
well see this dun they kinda look alike?
same eyes n smile!!
hehe
on the left in son ho young n the right adam chen!! ^^
today adam chen in maggi n me!! must watch.. hehe

haishhh

2008-01-20T14:51:00.000+08:00

u've said sorry; i've said sorry
but i still feel the same
i guess it cant be the same anymore
maybe i'm having PMS.. but i dunno..
i still feel pain..
i dunno..
i jus feel like u dont need me
ur too busy
i understand but my hearts doesnt
=((
tmr is gonna be monday..
i dun feel like seeing u
=((
dun feel like going to sch either
NAPFA is on tues n i guess i'm gonna fail
damn it
can i graduate??
fuuuhhhh
i wish i was in sec sch now..
i dun like wads happening to me
i miss u faizzah!!! =((
i dun feel happy
haish..
eun neul ahh... i cant stand up right now
i jus cant
wen will i stop feeling dis way...
*wonders*

wad the...

2008-01-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

damn it
why must today episode of kinship be so sad
i'm emotional enuff
n i had to watch smth that wld make me cry all over again
haish..
i'm bored
no one is at hm
my mum didnt cook
i have not eaten except for bread for the whole day
sad huh??
yea thats how my life is now..
sad..
=((

stupid day

2008-01-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

=......((
i'm crying one litre of tears
it jus wont stop
am i lacking??
what do u want??
i dont get it
am i that terrible
u nvr did understand me
u did not know i took care of every single detail
but u dont
i didnt mind
but now i'm having PMS n its not making me feel better
u say i cant comfort u??
i dunno but i tot i did
i cant stand it.. my heart hurts so much
i dun feel like seeing u no more
but dats y i'm saying now
i'm too emotional n u cant try to understand
ur not the same anymore
i cant rely on u no more
i hav to rely on myself from now onwards
eugene sorry i col u bullier
i'm sorry
i'm jus not perfect
i'm sorry
i need someone to hug me!!
damn it!!! =...((((

life

2008-01-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

life is getting duller n sadder
with u not making me happy n cant do anythg
its been going on for 2 days
i'm having stupid PMS
cant control the emotions
i'm trying to understand but my feeling jus dun
damn..
6 days.. damn dats long.. gotta wait till monday
n its gonna be a long wait n a short meeting
time is going to fast
i tink i dun have time to know myself better to grow up
i want to be a kid
jeez.. life's jus unfair
bluek!!!
went to the hospital to check my eye
lucky nothing.. jus dat the doc say my eye has some sort..
became a rugby ball shape.. not round.. hahaha
so funny
haish.. i dun feel like studying no more..
i dun wanna work
i wanna talk play n love
hahahha
haish...
big bang is not here
wad to do.. i'm like waiting 4 smth dat i wont get to see..
life is unfair =((

a new week

2008-01-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

its monday again..
n it keeps raining..
haish.. lifes the same..
but i tink i'm in love all over again..
hahaha i didnt know that cld happen ^^
i pray dat my love ones and me are always happy and healthy
nothing is gonna bother me no more..
cos i know i have u to rely on.. =)
hmmm..
donsaeng ah...
HWAITING!! hyung believe in u!!
hehehe =D
i'm full of smiles dis days..
thank god for that
sch is still the same..
dongsaeng n bullier talk abt my tell me dance..
i was not that happy cos they make fun
but what the hell; i'm happy so i wont be bothered by it..
i know at least i cld dance.. hehehe
i've got only one thg left to say
SARANGHAEYO!! hehehe ^^

saturday

2008-01-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

well today nothing much happpened again
went to revenue hse today for my dad co.
but it wasnt time yet to do the tax thingy
so kinda watsting time.. haha
den i watch death note 2 at last.. haha
wahh so fun.. so dats how L died.. so sad
L is so clever but weird haha
but very cute hehehe
i wanna watch L changes the world..
looks great!!
cant wait
i oso den teach my sis n her fren maths
haha a little only..
i wore a snowcap.. a red one..
i look like T.O.P oppa.. hehehe
dun i?? ^^

dance tell me

2008-01-10T15:29:00.000+08:00

hahaha its me dancing to tell me by wondergirls. i recorded it tru my hp and using this media converter to convert it to wmv; so i cldnt get rid of that trial 'sentence thingy' hahaha.. dun laugh too much watching it. its my first try ^^ hehehe

its thursday

2008-01-10T10:57:00.001+08:00

its thursday already. dats like so fast.
i have no sch today!! so fun but boring!
i have to cook n clean the hse later. wad a bore.
dongsaeng didnt cum yesterday.
get well soon ya!!
n i'm not angry. stop calling urself an asshole.
hmmm..
its scary tinkin of the future..
again i'm tinkin too much.
god help me
i'm such a bad person n ppl dun know..
You only do =(
my dad has a toothache n went to the dentist
cant believe it cost $180!!
wahhh.. jus like dat 180 gone
hmmm..
nothing much quite happen for the last few days
jus went to sch n study
my class is still noisy n my teacher keeps repeating
damn irritating
jeez.. at least i cld still study
now i'm hungry n have not yet took a shower..
oh man..
now i wish i have sch on thursday
bluek!
bigbang
cant u come to singapore???
u do have fans here!!!
like me!!!!!!!!
jeez i sound so pathetic
dongsaeng ah.. i still dun have enuff money!!
y am i so lazy..
*shakes head*
do ppl find me irritating??
i feel i do sound irritating..
oh man..
i want to eat so much this days..
jus plain lazy
maybe dats y i'm like dis
ha ha
wen i'm lazy i sleep
n dis is how i look like
my sis took her own pic n i'm at the backgrd slping
dun i look in peace??
hahaha

sch re opens

2008-01-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

i'm so lazy to blog

bcos i dunno wad to write abt

does dat shows i'm a boring person??

i miss my old sec life..

i miss my best fren..

haish..

to day sch re opens

nothing much happened

i get to see my dongsaeng today!!

happy to see her

she seems tired

i pity her

wish i could help her

but how could i?

i couldnt even help myself

jeez...

'hyung' is sorry

i've been eating alot dis days..

why??

i cant grow anymore

i'm scared i'll grow side ways

OMG!!

saw eungene today..

his face seems to be abit different

doesnt look like eun hyuk anymore

hahaha

haven tell him dat yet

his hair has grown loger n his front teeth dat has a gap has combined!!

hahaha

didnt tot the thing he puts on his teeth does werk..

miracle!!

graduating soon..

why??

i'm scared wad the future holds..

do i have to make frens again..

its hard

cos only little ppl understand me..

haish..

ware is big bang??

are they waiting for me??!!

Choi Seung Hyun OPPA!!! kidario!!!

haishh

dongsaeng better give me their new songs!!!

i cant wait to listen..

hehehe

ANNYONG!!!

at hm

2008-01-03T10:14:00.000+08:00

i'm back..

haha.. dunno how long didnt blog

2 days 3 days 4 days..

hmmm..

nothing much actually happen

jus hoping sch reopens soon

its so tiring at hm

n guess wad..

i found out smth

n it makes me really2 mad..

hmmmm....

wen can i meet big bang!!!???

haishh..

i may be goin to poly..

but.. i have a problem

i dun wanna ware tudung if i go poly

damn man..

my father is so narrow minded or u can say kolot

cant even go out late and come back hm at night

isnt that pathetic

wad a life i have..

i'm 18, dont i get a little more freedom from him

haish..

sitting at hm playing the comp n wondering wen i'm going to meet big bang

haishhhhh..

i wanna go korea.. badly..

dongsaeng lets go together..

haish.. i wish i have the whole world's money

damn..

wen am i gonna stop complaining

*shakes head*

anyway.. big bang n wonder girls so suit each otha..

haha

weird, i didnt like wondergirls at first..

hahahaha

well here is T.O.P n Yoo Bin hu i like the most ^^

(the pictures above)

new year's eve

2007-12-31T17:56:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!
today got to meet him
i'm so happy
played games wif him
^^
dibidibidip was the most fun!!
i miss him already
yea tmr is a new yr!!
i do have resolutions 4 the new yr!!
i hope i will do it!!
not telling anyone wad they are
^^ hehehe
now i'm feeling abit hungry
hahaha
haish
i cant grow no more
haish
big bang wait 4 me!!!!
haish

end of the week

2007-12-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

well at last its the end of the week
there is still one more wk till sch opens
how long do i hav to wait
its to draggy
today was really bored
slept
eat
play the comp
haish
will it always be like dis??
i'm feeling tired
dongsaeng stop werking
i dun seem to get u no more
dun have the laughter
dun have the smiles
haish
wen am i going to meet big bang
haish
i'm 18 but dun look like one
will ppl always see me as a small girl
dats sad
haish
dongsaeng....
ware r u??

a boring weekend

2007-12-29T22:04:00.001+08:00

wad a day
nothing happen
tiring day
slept
eat
watch tv
help my sis do her blog
do my secretarial work
dats all
wen is sch gonna open
i miss my frens
dongsaeng ware r u??

Fuhhh..

2007-12-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

at last finished doin the blog template
so tiring!! no wonder i've deleted my old blogs!!
cos i cant be bothered ^^ hehe
well i wonder how long this blog can last
hmm.. wad a boring day today
cant meet him
was very sad
n i miss my dongsaeng
haishhhh..

i'm back

2007-12-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

hahaha
its been a long time i've been blogging!!
well doing it again for the sake of doing it!! hahaha
well i'll be posting abt me later.
=D

all about hyun yoo

STUPID

HOTTTT!!!

POSING

LONELY

the end of the weekend . . . .

new goodies!!!

videos

what a bummer . . . . . .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

more great videos!!

gooseebuummpsss

Trick Or Treat!!

OH MY GOD!!

AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN

girls day out

am i just a toy?

BREAKING

BIG BANG SCREENING

I'M BACK!!

Gojidmal

headache

drained out

sick and tired

Video

hello

Random

cough cough

same old me

what am i to do

my wishlist

past tense

pain

projects projects and more projects

re-cap

term test

ezlink card

Annyoung!!! its me!!!

here and there

poly scares me

poly life

HATE IT

T-SHIRTS

bullshit

updates

Exams results

DBSK

Super Junior

tuesday

its me again

boring!!

thursday

wednesday

the holidays are here!!

wohuuu its friday!!

...............

exams coming!!

i'm happy i'm happy

made me sad 4 nothing

BIG BANG

sad

dots...

ready or not

friday is here

cramps

feeling sick

back from KL

i feel down

i am sorry

TOP

tired

Damn CA

i'm back2

f***ing day

haishhh

wad the...

stupid day

life

a new week

saturday